I know that I have a lot of work to do (especially with a December focus on finishing up my dissertation). The title of this blog post (said by the fabulous Amy during her presentation), by the way, echoes the revising that I know is necessary in order to figure out what it is that I actually want to say. Some of this new revising work is also in finding the confidence that I think I lost when breast cancer came along. Participating in this seminar was the first "test" of acknowledging that my confidence is not where I want it to be. It doesn't help that I have gained a bunch of weight post cancer/hysterectomy (and that my body has scars I never had before) but I need to learn to be more comfortable with who I am as a researcher, writer, teacher, and person. A lot of times, the current Dianna is a messed up emotional pit of low self confidence. I need to actively change this. I want to be the "teacher scholar" that compositionist Howard Tinberg evokes in his work. And if I learned anything from my time here, it's that revising is always an option. This doesn't just allude to my research -- I need to work on revising the way I see myself.
On a final note: I don't know what I would have done if I had not experienced this Dartmouth Seminar. I have so much hope that my research will now be reliable and relevant.
PS: Here a picture or two of the whole gang!
(Do you spy any famous folk among us?)
(the hard working participants!)